Mind

When my mind is gone
It'll be too soon.

It makes me mad,
I'll only live much longer.
I could die in my sleep.

Once I'm dead,
I'll be in the ground asleep.

We were born dying.
Living is trying.
To change it.
But we can't.

Me

If I ever hurt myself,
I'll hide it.
I can't take this pain.
Away.

I'm simple.
I'm me.

I'll take,
I've taken.
I've took a lot.
I'll take a lot more.
More pain to soothe,
My soul.

I'm simple.
I'm me.

Nothing can stop,
What stirs deep down.
Been trying to hide the scars,
That everyone judges me on.

I'm simple.
I'm me.

Let's see what you've got,
I've got a whole lot more.
More than enough,
To hurt my soul.

I am me.

I'm simple.
I'm me.

I'm simple.
I'm me.

Hickey

I give you one.
I give you another.
Make it last forever.

If its with you,
We're going to be all night.
If its with you,
We're going to be all right.

Baby, baby.
You rock my world,
All night long.

Baby, baby.
You rock my world,
All night long.

Cause its you.
You know its true.
I just want to be yours,
Together, forever.

You and me.
Making rain and thunder.

I'm falling apart because..

I'm falling apart because:
I'm a tool
I'm dying of disease
Whats after death?
Evil me.
Porn again.
Gasm.
Reality check
Gimmick
Regardlesss
Broadband
The Associates
Redjay
I'm rotten,
Darling, lets have another baby!
2007 - Darvish

(Poetry ideas)

Racism

Of racism, aware of.
What has my forgiveness ever given me?
Nothing can be forgiven or forgotten.

I don’t feel good.
I don’t feel right.
I don’t feel safe.
I don’t feel.

And I realize...
And I realize...
And I realize...
Of racism, aware of.

I can be proud of where I came from,
Its pride, not hate.

Touching

I don’t want you to know me,
Since I don’t want to know you.
Only to have my way with you.

I get hard,
it makes you wet.
I ache to fuck,
I love the sex.
I crave the smell,
I need that scent.

The touching is:
Sucking,
Fucking,
Licking,
Lovemaking
Pounding.

The touching is:
Wonderful.

Imagine

Imagine this, imagine that,
Food poison is on the attack!

Here to play, here to stay,
Causing array.
Get in our face,
We’ll kick your ass to outer space!

Scraping through your throat,
Hurt with no chance of hope.
In one cavity, out the other,
Of mind of body, one another.

All feelings numb and lost,
Payment is whatever the cost.
Pride is swallowed, no guts no glory,
No fairy tales, so this is the story.

All the lies on TV.
100% guaranteed!
You’re sucked in, you’re a sucker.
Live your lies you motherfucker.

Poisoned to die from within,
Medicine is the healing friend.
Nothing to see, just another fact,
Rat food poison is poison of attack.

Imagine this, imagine that,
Food poison is on the attack!

Here to play, here to stay,
Causing array.
Get in our face,
We’ll kick your ass to outer space!

Born This Way

You hopes and dreams aren't mine,
A doctor or lawyer is what you will be.
That is to be your life,
Your dream, our dream.

Well mother and father,
I hate to disappoint.
But I found love,
And it feels alright.

This talent is creative,
And its because I'm half you and you.
My words mean so much,
My feelings portrayed mean more.

I'm sorry but money won't,
Will not lessen the pain.
How would I feel without doubt,
How else could I let feelings out?

This is work not a game to play,
You made me I was born this way.
I don't really need you to acknowledge,
I'll never need that sort of knowledge.

Mother and father,
I hate to say it like this,
but some dreams break down,
And wither away.

Time

Its midnight and I'm ready
To be destructive.
I do it for the cause,
Who cares about the effect.

Time to deploy.
Time to destroy.
Cause its...

Antagonistic,
Chauvinistic,
Being sadistic,
Not a statistic.

Only about myself,
But damn its nice.

Time to deploy.
Time to destroy.
Cause its...

Antagonistic,
Chauvinistic,
Being sadistic,
Not a statistic.

Lets make a mess.
Cause its real and its pretty.
I don't have a reason,
Lets fight.

Its time for one, and I'm the one.

Passion

It makes me mad that I had to
Take you apart and kill you.

I wish I hadn't because you were so fun
Now I'm alone and hungry.

Where has the passion gone?
Was it in your brains?
Now it's in a cardboard box off of Highway 9

I miss that. I miss your brains the most.

I once courted and now I'm a court.

Didn't rely on judgment of force.

Now judgment is rhyme and reason,
Courtship means committing treason.

Forgiven is the passion.
The passion is forgiven.
Vindication.
Not to forgive but to forget.

Forget you

Forget myself.

Cry

Sometimes,
The best is out to get me.
One time,
I couldn't hold on forever.

You tried,
To have a choice in the matter.
Likely,
I had a source of desire.

No more,
Not even sometimes.
Publicity,
When I need productivity.

I wish,
For disappearing.
Or vanishing acts.
Contained is my pride.
Restrained is my voice.

My temptation,
Is based on evolution.
This is real suffering,
These tears in motion.

Glad

Being with you brings me joy,
And comfort to my heart.
Your compassionate concern,
Makes me gloomy when we part.

Every time we lay on the bed together,
A soothing embrace we share.
Gazing into each others eyes,
No other thing could compare.

The lengths you go to keep me happy,
Surprise me all the time.
To think we've got something so real,
I'm so glad that you are mine.

Waiting for the time I see you,
You're in my mind all day.
Kissing your lips pleases me,
In the most wonderful kind of way.

These days, now I see,
We've gone so far.
With time,
Our happiness begins to show.

This love we have,
So amazing and true,
Will continue to grow and grow.

Disposal

No tombstone to mark a passing,
No urn filled with ashes.
No coffin or plaque to show.
A good day to die in the air.

Everything to the birds.

The flesh,
The eyes,
All the meat.
Even the bones.

A Earthworm's best meal.

Everything swallowed up,
By the ground.
Honestly and with reverence.

A complete disposal.

I

I seem to think what we had was normal.
It wasn't, and you aren't.
I hurt myself and my friendships for this.
A love of vanity.

Me, myself, and I.
I am the best.
I deserve it.
At the very least.

I won't sleep with your friends.
Unless they make the first move.
It's not my fault I'm so great.
I'm realistic and they are not.

What's wrong with that?
My eyes say to go for it all.
My pumped desires lead me on.
I must not stay attached.

Me, myself, and I.
I deserve everything.
I am the Queen and King.
I won't settle for less than best.

I really cared about you though,
But it was only me.

Real

My physical,
My mental.
My emotional,
Its all coincidental.

I have real tears.
Eyes blink.
My hand hurts from writing,
So fast my mind is racing.

Is that physical?
I lose my thought.
That was me that hurts,
Something bad is out there.

My pay for my talent and genius,
It makes me.
I am real, very realistic.
All this around me I feel.

It hurts like no other pain,
I wish it would.
I wish I could make it go away.
I wish I could.

I am hurt and hungry,
I'm always losing.
Losing is a waste of time,
Our time is money.

Winning the war is everything.
I will not lose,
You hear me?

Vulnerability

No one loves me,
At least how I love myself.
When I'm hurt I cry,
I wish I was dead at times.

When I'm sad,
I pretend to be happy.
When I'm ashamed,
I look down to the floor.

When in fear,
I won't be merry.
When I'm afraid,
I see things blurry.

When I'm furious,
I can't think straight.
The sun is a dark cloud,
Colors aren't so bright.

I cry really hard,
When it rains it pours.
But i hate to show it,
Cause I want to be perfect.

These are idiotic troubles,
I feel betrayed.
Kicking and screaming,
Savage.

I laugh but its odd laughter.
Laughter a maniac would laugh.
No one loves me,
Laugh to that.

Implosion

My stomach tightens,
Like an implosion.
I swallow loudly,
My teeth they clench.

The adrenaline makes me angry,
There is fire in me.
All I'm doing is huffing air.

I hope to find my way back.
My life fades away sometimes.
I need to fight for my beliefs.
I'm tired of not standing up.

I guess I'll just act like I stand up for something.

Reality

When it experiences me.
The feel is sick,
Like it wants to hurl.
The back shivers,
Going up and down.

Deeper breathing,
Intense breath.
Eyes watering.
The muscles are tense.

Start to hyperventilate,
Eyes engage forward.
Powers are useless,
Focus on how to get out.

Being so rigid.
So fight.
Laugh and cry,
The noise sickens itself.

Everybody

I won't cost a dime.
Here's a quarter.
Better head south,
For the border.
I've got everybody
In my pocket.

Everybody,
Make your bodies shake,
Everybody,
Raise the stakes.
That's the way to do it,
That's the way.

Anybody,
Anybody move your bodies.
Move them round and round,
Everybody make some sound.
That's the way to do it,
That's the way.

You've been here a while,
And everyday everybody.
To wake up with a smile.
You're still a nobody.

That is no crime,
If it is,
I do my time.

I say it over and over again.
You only get one life to live.

Family

I have no mother,
Her life taken by drugs.
Friendly drugs.

I have no father,
His life taken by addiction.
Friendly addiction.

I have a brother,
Who's crazy as can be.
He likes to be loud and maybe,
He is just a great friend.

I have no sister,
Younger than me.
She is old and wise,
But she is foolish.

We were the greatest,
Family.