First Date

I played billiards at 18,
Thinking I was the hotshot and a hustler.
You were a younger girl
With me for everything I had.

My car.
My drugs.
My money.
But I didn't mind at the time.

I spent our first date
Using a credit card.
It was my first time.

I never got a kiss
But I stole your friend's Digger hat.
Sorry.
I was being dumb.

Braces

Woman in distress.
I roll around
She flags me down
Her and her friend in need.

They are out of gasoline
"No problem" I say,
"Hop in my truck
There's a station near."

I drop them off
At their vehicle.
They start it right up
And off we go our separate ways.

Later, I find out my sister
Hates her.
What was her name?
I was seventeen.
She was sixteen.

Girl with braces. And short.

Blue Mondays

The most depressing day is when I must keep hurting myself,

When all I get is hurt.

I can't remember the last time

I laughed or the first time I smiled.

It's the most depressing day of my life and I'm not fine.

I can't go on

Like the rest.

This earth is full of blood.

It has no use for bleeding.

I have no use for myself.

I hate myself today.

I wish I would not live.

I think of all my pain.

I wish it could end.

Untitled

me.

Untitled

you.

I am of the Earth, the Universe

I am of the Earth
The river
I flow into the lakes
I am an ocean.

I am a step of the world
One step forward, sometimes two steps back.
I am a star, and I am the Sun.
The Earth needs a mother and father.
I am not just an ordinary moon.
I am the galaxy.

I am
I am
I am
Sometimes I am not.
But I am what I am,
And I cannot change it.

I am a man. A part of the Earth.
A part of the Universe.

Transgendered

You think you know me, but do you really?
Am I the same when near you and others?
Do you think the desire is fresh without you?
You've been in love with yourself,
And I've been asleep.

This relation is a relief to be relieved.
It was unhealthy.
Why we stayed is because we loved junk food.
We is no longer you and me.

I laughed but inside I cried.
The reality is that.
Our failed attempt at love,
Was ambiguous in the depth of its union.

Tanaz

Tanaz,

You are a cheater now,
But it's because you are a part of him.
A father that cheats his own kids.

You must think I hate you at times,
When all this while I've only loved you.
Anything I've said mean was in vain,
I'm sorry.

You and me,
A love that will always be.
We can never see each other again,
It has to be this way now.

My sister,
I love you.

Crazy

A good mother would,
She would not be angry.
I won't hold it against you,
Its a crazy world.

Leave me alone,
I won't run away to form a cult.
I'll keep quiet,
Everyone will think its my fault.

You lied to me and made me lie,
Made me feel so bad but why?
It was all on you though,
I learned, I learned to be sly.

I don't know why I still feel high,
I don't care how this I vow,
This I promise somehow.

I don't understand why,
and I don't care how.
It never really mattered,
Cause this is what I want now.

My destiny but not exactly,
My lateness, my fate less.
My future is not you,
It was meant for me.

Love

I want to see you
I love to need you
I love to be with you

Its a great day to be with you
No place I'd rather be
Than here with you

I'm happy to be a fish out of water
With you I can breathe the air
I love to love you

Zero

Zero plus one,
Only one.
Still just one,
That zero is me.

Alone and happy,
Single and campy.

Zero is zero.
Subtract, add.
Delete.

College

College is business,
Their product is knowledge.
Not paper,
At the end of four years.

If all that is wanted is the diploma,
A piece of paper can recreate that.

Then yours is just as real,
Only thousands less.
Than the real cost,
Of a real education.

Mate

Mate you are my paper,
And I your faithful pen.
I write and write right,
I don't know when to stop.

I jot I doodle,
I script.
How to do it,
Rhyme that is.

Legal, art,
Bonded or copy.
So many choices,
One truth in the statement.

Cha

I give you a song,
You dance along.

Cha Cha Cha!

I give you rhythm,
You dance along.

Cha Cha Cha!

I give you guitar,
You dance along.

Cha Cha Cha!

I give you an outro,
You dance along.

Cha Cha Cha!

Where?

Lets give a shout,
Lets give a toast.

To one more day,
Alive.

To breathe and to win,
We don't want to die.

We are here.

One more day,
Alive.

We are here.

Sexed

I like to be sexed,
I like to be sexual.

I like to sex.

I'm not a whore,
Its more like a chore.
I hope I'm not a bore,
In bed.

Preps

Are we jocks?
No.

Are we nerds?
No.

What are we?
We are preps.

Live life to the limit,
and we don't like tests.

We are preps.

Crawls

You got me by the balls.
I try to run in the closet,
You get me in the halls.

Run to you instead.
I try to get ahead.

I like to be alone.
Don't bitch,
Don't moan.

You got my balls.
Two Barbie dolls.
Stupid.
We don't walk,
We crawls.

Bird

I'm just a British bird.
Its not absurd.

I'm just a British bird.

I like the fog.
I like to jog.
I eat like a hog.
I sing like a dog.

I'm just a British bird.

In love.

Am I

I've been away for so long.
I don't know what it feels like.

When I do it,
I don't feel wrong.

I'm flying,
This is flight.

I'm masturbating.